MedWorm provides a medical RSS filtering service. Over 6000 RSS medical sources are combined and output via different filters. This feed contains the latest medical blog items that have been tagged with 'hear'. Sat, 03 Sep 2011 02:21:36 +0100 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4876487&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fu6iSqa-MJek%2F It is becoming less painful, the memories. Now when I think about you I, more times than not, smile and close my eyes. When I walk by pictures of you, I stop and remember with happiness not pain. But then there are those times when it becomes overbearing and the tears come rushing down my face. It is becoming easier to talk about you and not go numb. I’ve been thinking a lot about heaven lately. What it will be like. If you are enjoying it. I picture you, in your earthly body, running and skipping down the streets of gold, singing clearly. You have on a white dress and it is floating through the air as you twirl. But then I stop and think- Do I have a real picture of what heaven really is, or is it my human heart longing to see you and hold you again? I have so many questions tha... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4876487 Sun, 29 May 2011 11:45:07 +0100 4876487 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4744911&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fp6YxCYSLfyY%2F Sweet Emma Grace met Jesus on Good Friday at 7:15pm. She finally received her full healing, although our hearts ache to have her back here. She is perfectly whole, and dancing with the Lord at this moment. I cannot describe the unbelievable ache we feel with her gone. It is at times unbearable. But there is peace. Peace in the knowledge that she is not hurting anymore. Peace in the knowledge that she can run and dance and sing in her perfect body. Peace in the knowledge that she is giving them heck up there…. But the silence down here is unbearable.. Please pray for our family, especially our 2 other children. Please pray that Christ would wrap his hands around their hearts and calm their uneasy minds. Pray for my husband, he is taking this really hard. Pray for me…. I do... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4744911 Sat, 23 Apr 2011 12:48:40 +0100 4744911 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4724187&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F6dZ2qPPB18o%2F ……..I’ve dropped anchor in Your promises and I am holding on…… -Steven Curtis Chapman Emma is now re-intubated. We are no closer to an answer than when we began this journey almost seven weeks ago… But He is in control. ————————————————— “He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD” – Deuteronomy 8:3 “Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vai... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4724187 Mon, 18 Apr 2011 15:21:47 +0100 4724187 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4709358&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fyo7puXGlbEs%2F Emma during OT/PT this morning: On a better day last week: Thank you so much for all of your prayers… Your comments on my last post were so uplifting! Emma is off bi-pap and on hi-flow oxygen. Her X-ray last night looked much improved but this mornings looks a little worse. The plan is that when she is stable respiratory wise, we will start the GI studies again. The plan is to do the swallow study first to see if she is aspirating her saliva, then proceed with the lower GI studies. We already know she has motility issues from her mitochondrial disease. (slow emptying of her stomach) Pulmonology wants to do a lung CT to see if she has chronic lung disease, most likely from her immuno-supressants. Right now, she is peacefully sleeping, which does my heart good. She has definitely... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4709358 Wed, 13 Apr 2011 16:27:48 +0100 4709358 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4704879&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FpXea-jdSrvg%2F …and they keep trying to breathe, keep the body moving to keep the soul from atrophying… – Amy Voskamp (expert from One Thousand Gifts: a dare to live fully right where you are) {*before reading this post, go back to the previous post to catch up on where we are at.} I had the “ugly cry” yesterday…you know the one that you bear your heart and soul on your face. The one where no noise comes out but tears come storming like a flood down your face? That cry. I hate seeing her like this. I hate not knowing what to do or how to fix it. I hate the feeling of starting over after five weeks. I hate that we have been here five weeks. I just hate doing this all again. The plan is that we are going to do the same test that we did before (swallow study, upper GI, g... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4704879 Mon, 11 Apr 2011 16:59:06 +0100 4704879 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4696886&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fzodq2wN5DTc%2F When I came into Emma’s room this morning her monitor read 100% oxygen and then suddenly dropped to the low 60’s. Her chest x-ray was completely whited out and revealed that she had aspirated again. She is currently on Bi-pap hoping to not be re-intubated. Oddly, she has not had anything by mouth since Thursday morning and the fundoplication was suppose to fix the reflux coming from her stomach, so we are going to do the whole upper GI studies again. The 2 likely scenarios are that her fundo is not tight enough which would mean another surgery or that she is aspirating on her saliva which would mean she would not be able to take anything by mouth again. Again, we covet your prayers. We do not want to have to go through this all over again. It feels like we are starting over, a... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4696886 Sat, 09 Apr 2011 16:33:44 +0100 4696886 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4622475&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fd9QSpkXNjaM%2F Emma had a rough night. She has been put back on the vent. She has spiked a fever of 104 most likely from trauma from surgery but are not certain that she wasn’t brewing an infection before the surgery and it is just now presenting itself. They have drawn blood cultures and put her on a broad spectrum antibiotic just in case. Her chest xray post op looked rough. This mornings looked better. Please cont. to pray for her, it has been a rough go since February. Much love, Heather (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4622475 Tue, 22 Mar 2011 15:26:37 +0100 4622475 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4615371&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F38nAcBb6lEU%2F They are taking Emma early. All of you prayer warriors that are awake please pray! I will update my twitter (espheather or you can read in the lower right corner of my blog) which will update my facebook. Much love, -H (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4615371 Mon, 21 Mar 2011 11:42:58 +0100 4615371 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4414650&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fu6ELcRhF_HY%2F In the last month and a half I have: Sat next to Emmas bed in PICU for two weeks.* I have asked God why too many times. I have been full of fear. I have been full of anger. I have been disappointed in myself, in my God, in my life. I have been exhausted With trying to be strong. Pretending to have it all together. Hiding the fact that I don’t. I have been shadowed with fear, Insecurity, Doubt, Loss. I have been honest with my Savior, with myself. And I have come to the realization {again} that it is not about me. Its about Him using me for His Glory… Not mine. It is about me completely trusting Him. With Emma. With me. I am tired of being a “cancer survivor, homeschool mom and mother of a special needs child just trying to survive.” I want to be more. For m... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4414650 Sat, 29 Jan 2011 13:38:57 +0100 4414650 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=4045293&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F3eNRi0wHhTY%2F Disclaimer: This is a speech from an saline abortion survivor, Gianna Jessen. It is raw. It is deep. It is deeply spiritual and convicting. But most of all, it is a true testament of how loving a God I serve. Please watch the video in its entirety. The ending is so very powerful. “How on earth can I go about limping through this world and not give all my heart, my soul, my mind, my strength, to the Christ who gave me life?” If you have had an abortion and are hurting , please visit this site (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=4045293 Fri, 08 Oct 2010 17:00:10 +0100 4045293 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3786133&cid=t_139031_87_f&fid=39187&url=http%3A%2F%2Fgetbetterhealth.com%2Fholding-hands-is-good-for-the-heart%2F2010.07.24 A trained observer is what most electrophysiologists are. And being a trained observer carries over into real life, as would the handiness of a plumber, or the strength of a brick layer, or the wordsmithing of a journalist. Will and I drive past our house. “Where are we going now,” he asks in the exasperated tone of a 13 year old. I need to take a picture. Why? Because middle-aged patients who’ve recently realized that their life is half over often seek clues to longevity. Let’s take stressed-out, middle-aged patients who’ve somehow been rendered free of AF (maybe by a skillful ablation, or more likely just happenstance). Let’s also say they don’t smoke, drink excessively, have normal blood pressure, normal blood sugar, and aren’t obese.... Better Health blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3786133 Sat, 24 Jul 2010 14:00:00 +0100 3786133 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3659122&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FWwEj5CUv-r8%2F Lament:  To express grief for or about; mourn At church yesterday during the prayer time at the end of the service I started to silently cry.  Then the crying led to an audible cry.  And then, before I knew it I was trying to hold back the sounds of my tears.  Yesterday’s sermon was not really a sermon but a testimony time of the Women’s Retreat that I am so sorry I missed.  All of these women came back  refreshed, revived, RENEWED. I need that. I want that.  I long for that. But something is holding me back from experiencing that. Reading over at Sleeping with Bread this morning, Mary Lue wrote on Lamenting, and how it was hindering her spiritual growth, and how the sermon at her church yesterday pushed her to lay those things down at the foot of the cross.  It got me ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3659122 Mon, 14 Jun 2010 12:19:02 +0100 3659122 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3570028&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FlMVY4od29KA%2F My mom came up to the rehab center  while we were there and brought Emma (and me) and plaque that stated “Good things will happen today.”  I  nonchalantly hung it on her window in her room at TGH and every once in a while I would read it in passing and smile and go on my way through the various therapies scheduled for that day. Today, as a sit on my lanai, it hangs over the table.  Every morning, when I come out and drink my coffee and have my quiet time, I see it.  But today I really see it. And I get it. No matter what today entails,  no matter what each moment holds- Good things will happen.  Good things always happen amidst the bad.  You would think by now, with all that I have gone through, I would have learned that.  You would think that it wouldn’t take a ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3570028 Mon, 17 May 2010 12:04:41 +0100 3570028 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3487318&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F9d6TwVbrmRs%2F Today will mark 10 weeks we have been at All Children’s Hospital. 10 weeks. I can hardly believe it has been that long. One of the many things I have learned in these past ten weeks is how very vulnerable my walk with Christ is. I have been attacked many times by satan tempting me to abandon my faith that the Lord will do what He says He will do. I have cried more than any mother should cry. I have been numb, angry, depressed, heartbroken…wash rinse repeat. Yet the one thing I have never felt is abandoned. I have always known, even in the darkest moments of the past 10 weeks that my God has not abandoned me or my daughter. I have never lost that nagging hope in the back of my heart that says “Be still and know that I am God. Watch what I am about to do.” That has... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3487318 Tue, 20 Apr 2010 14:06:56 +0100 3487318 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3480896&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FXVErnPPDvls%2F Today has been full of small miracles!  She is eating and swallowing on her own (you have to put the food in her mouth, but she goes for it with her tongue!) She has some purposeful eye movement.  She is able to sit unassisted and hold her head up straight.  She LOVES going for wheel chair rides outside! (We are renting a wheelchair for her)  She is consistently raising her hand so that daddy can do “this little piggy” with her fingers She picks her nose, rubs her eyes and clicks her teeth just like she use to do! She is still in there… We just have to find the right method to getting her out. She is going to be moved to Tampa General Pediatric Rehabilitation Center Tuesday or Wednesday.  She has an MRI scheduled for Monday, so be praying for that. I just want to th... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3480896 Sun, 18 Apr 2010 01:36:46 +0100 3480896 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3476028&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FpjJBjYIlN04%2F That quote is so very true, only Christ controls the weather… but he gives me the freedom and choice to adjust my sails.  I can adjust them slightly and go down with the ship or I can go full force and ride the storm out until the end. I choose to ride this storm with my sails full force. The last couple days have been really rough.  We have seen some of the effects of the seizures/swelling and it is going to be a long hard road.  The neurologist, when asked if this was the Emma we were going to take home stated that she had “significant changes on her MRI and it possibly was, but only time would tell”.  I truly hate that phrase..”only time will tell.” She most likely is going to go  from here to a residential rehabilitation center, but “only time w... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3476028 Fri, 16 Apr 2010 14:02:08 +0100 3476028 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3467983&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FR3XxMEjiAPM%2F Yesterday Emma had a Visual Evoked Potential test.  This test can tell us if the brain sees.  The test stated that there were “definite signals from the eyes to the brain.”  It can’t however tell us how well she can see or how she sees. Just the fact that she can see does our hearts so good.  We won’t know anything more until she gets completely out of the medically induced coma (Pentobarbital coma).  She is down on the Pentobarbital drip from 2.5 to .5 – We are hoping to be completely off tomorrow morning.  It will stay in her system anywhere from 3 days to a couple of weeks.  It stores in the fat cells, which Emma has little of, so it may be in the next couple of days. She is off the ventilator, and not strapped down any longer.  She is still pretty ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3467983 Tue, 13 Apr 2010 19:13:57 +0100 3467983 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3460361&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FLczL9S9qPa0%2F We have done a lot of yelling, screaming, crying and bargaining with God over the weekend.  We have both asked why so very many times,  and then we have cried some more. A commenter on the last post, Dianne posted the words and the youtube for the song Psalm 62 by Shane and Shane (whom me and my husband love.) The words that spoke to my heart the most are: Oh I am calling out. Oh my soul, oh my stubborn soul. Won’t you wait on Him. Wait in the guilt. Even in your fear. Oh your God is here to lean on. He won’t move. He never left His throne.  Though all of this has taken us by huge surprise, He isn’t shocked. He is still God.  He is still our savior. He is still my friend, even though I find it hard to even talk to Him at this time.. He still hears my heart. And He won... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3460361 Mon, 12 Apr 2010 13:52:45 +0100 3460361 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3435207&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FiDKkjbqvRO0%2F What a difference a day makes! She is off oxygen and her blood saturation is 100%.  She is down on her Midazolam (versed) drip to treat her seizures from .7 to .4!   She is making sounds and coughing.  She has opened her eyes on command but closes them quickly.  The neurologist came in this morning and said that her left side of her brain is still very very sick.  She has beautiful sleep spindles on the right side of her brain but not as good on the left.  The left is where most if not all of the seizure activity came from so she is concerned enough to mention it.  She said that it was a good sign that she wanted breathing tube out and removed it herself (with her tongue, non the less!) and that she had purposeful movement on both sides.  She said that most of the seizures were co... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3435207 Sat, 03 Apr 2010 14:53:55 +0100 3435207 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3411266&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fs2hTFydsIjM%2F (This post was originally written in 2oo7.  It speaks to the heart of my post yesterday and when I read it this morning, it spoke to my heart again.) Have you ever thought about that? Jesus wept. In the midst of his heartache, in the midst of his impending death. He wept. He cried out visibly to his Father, praying that the cup would be taken from his hand. When our children are hurting, scared or tired, they weep. We wrap our arms around them and tell them that it is okay, that it will get better, that they are loved. We rush to their sides, and attend to their needs, because thats what mothers do. After all, these are our babies. Yet, when we, as moms, wives and women hurt, we hold it in. We tell ourselves that we must push those emotions aside, because after all we are moms, wives and ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3411266 Sat, 27 Mar 2010 12:11:50 +0100 3411266 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3307047&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FSXTbMRQmNxw%2F I’ve been listening to this song over and over while watching my daughter fight in the PICU. I’ve often had to remind myself over the last 11 days that He really is in control. I listen to the words and really let them penetrate my heart, and then I am less afraid for her. My mommy heart aches seeing her on a breathing machine. My arms long to hold her and make this all better, but I can’t. I have cried more tears in the last week, yet I know this is what is best for her. The virus has attacked hard, and her lungs need time to heal. I look at her on the vent and cant help but ask why. Why her. Why now. Why in general. But I know he holds her heart (and mine) in the palms of his hands. I just have to trust that. Which, quite frankly, is hard right now. They are going to ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3307047 Thu, 25 Feb 2010 17:25:51 +0100 3307047 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3075732&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fi4K62i7Lxtg%2F If you followed me on twitter yesterday, you probably already know that my MRI was clear! Thank you so much for all of your prayers and support. I have no idea why this last MRI was so stressful to me {and my family} but it really helped knowing that you were praying. I am sorry that I couldn’t update sooner but my parents took us out for Mexican food last night to celebrate and then I literally fell asleep on the car ride home (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3075732 Thu, 10 Dec 2009 12:32:09 +0100 3075732 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3067270&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FWpCaARiGQvM%2F Tomorrow is my quarterly MRI, Labs and Clinic visit. The fact is this visit is no different than the previous visits regarding protocol, yet it is very different emotionally for me. I always get anxious before, and I always can talk myself down. But this time all I can think about is what the neurosurgeon said to me and my husband right after surgery.. 3-5 years. I am coming up on my expiration date according to the statistics. Yes, I know that statistics are only numbers based on the average. I have written about this many times, I know in my head that I am not a statistic…. But this time I need to feel it in my heart. This is one of those times that I wish I would have been able to speak when we received the prognosis… I would stopped him before he had time to finish. I ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3067270 Tue, 08 Dec 2009 14:02:22 +0100 3067270 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3048311&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F0Lv9ge4-LVE%2F When ever I hear of someone who has been recently diagnosed with cancer, my mind goes back to that day when I first heard that I had brain cancer. I remember the fear and the complete out of control feeling that I felt. I remember the pleading, praying, bargaining, begging and finally the surrender that I experienced. I have recently come across two very precious people that have just been diagnosed with cancer. Wendy has just been diagnosed with lymphoma. Reading through her blog, floods of emotion ran through me… especially this post I remember silently watching my hair go down the drain, trying to hold back the tears… I remember calling my dad because Mark was at work and asking him to come over and shave my head because it was too hard to watch it gradually fall out. I rem... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3048311 Wed, 02 Dec 2009 15:44:08 +0100 3048311 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3039986&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FftKZZ5taKzU%2F First, thank you so much for your comments on my last post.. they really helped. I appreciate your prayers also, more than you will ever know. On the way home from church this morning, this song came on. The words really touched my heart and calmed my thoughts. I have been praying so hard that Christ would calm my fears and put his hand on my heart, and I believe that He did through your comments and through this song. It really amazes me that even when I doubt His sovereignty, he somehow manages to look past that and gently guide me back to where I belong, putting my focus back into prospective. It has been a very long 3 weeks filled with pure exhaustion, and I feel like I have lost all sense of control…. And that’s right where He wants me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3039986 Sun, 29 Nov 2009 19:06:01 +0100 3039986 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=3037071&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FSFemcvr3-Eg%2F These past few weeks I have been just trying to stay afloat. My mind has been traveling to places it shouldn’t, and I have had a hard time with the how’s and why’s. I have found myself fearful of the next MRI (Dec. 9th) and I really don’t know why. I know in my heart that He is already there and he knows the outcome…. it is just hard not having that control. I hear these words over and over in my heart: “Be still and know”…. but my mind wont stay still long enough to let what I know sink in. So, if you would, say a prayer for me. Pray that I would have peace that passes all understanding and that satan would have no control over my thoughts. Pray that I would go in confidence to my Dec 9th MRI, and that His will would be done- not mine. That ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=3037071 Sat, 28 Nov 2009 18:43:34 +0100 3037071 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2993913&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FY6hmGDM1VVI%2F Stop. That is what my heart is telling me to do. Stop. Stop being so negative. Stop trusting what the doctors say to be 110% accurate. Stop moping around, thinking about death and dying, and start living. That, of course is what I have told myself from day one of my brain cancer diagnosis, and somehow I have gotten away from that mindset. Because the truth is, Cancer can’t be trusted. I had no symptoms, no warning. It hit out of nowhere and completely blindsided me and my family. Isn’t that just like life? It hits you without any warning, blindsiding your faith and trust.. {continued @ incourage..} (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2993913 Sun, 15 Nov 2009 05:00:09 +0100 2993913 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2963292&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FVOih0uE0EbE%2F From the cradle to college tell your daughters the truth about life before they believe the cultures lies. Easton and I have been discussing pretty deep issues as of late. Sex, dating, guys, etc. I have to tell you that it was a little uneasy for me at first because the fact that she is growing up really has taken me by surprise! She is no longer a little girl. I try to emphasize that sex is a beautiful thing, and is well worth the wait. It is not enough in this day and age to tell them not to do it because “God says not too.” The world is telling them that it is a totally acceptable thing at any age. She is bombarded with images of half clad teenagers {especially here in Florida}. We talk about what being virtuous means. We talk about what “reputation” she wants ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2963292 Thu, 05 Nov 2009 13:32:24 +0100 2963292 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2927528&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FuOzMrSehT6Q%2F “When nobody around you seems to measure up, it’s time to check your yardstick.” ~Bill Lemley That quote has stuck with me since the first time I read it. I often have to check my yardstick because someone is failing me or not living up to my expectations/standards. And then I think about how many times I have tried to live up to someone else’s standards and failed miserably. I remember when I first told you guys that I had brain cancer, the pressure was so intense to post positively. I felt that all eyes were on me and that if I failed {whether spiritually, emotionally, or health wise}, I was failing you. I have since come to acknowledge that being “perfect” in my pain is not what is expected of me, in fact most of you have often said that you come her... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2927528 Mon, 26 Oct 2009 04:00:37 +0100 2927528 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2842763&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F67tiaK_Vlxg%2F {This post was originally written on August 26, 2007} I’m sitting here, trying to think about how to put my heart into words, but the only thing that comes out is “Whatever, Lord.” Whatever you need to do, do it. Give me the grace and the strength to fight this, because right now I have none of both. I don’t want to do this any more; I don’t want to feel sick and tired anymore. I am so sick of being sick. If this is what I will feel like for the next year, you have to give me the strength to combat this, because I can’t do this on my own strength. I know you have a plan, and your plan is perfect, but does it have to be so hard? Does it have to be so tiring, draining and so endless? I know you love me, I know that… but right now I need to feel it. I need to feel your hand o... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2842763 Mon, 28 Sep 2009 06:00:06 +0100 2842763 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2752112&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FQqKKOcVTKHo%2F “Nothing external can steal our right to delight” – Beth Moore I mentioned in my short post yesterday that I went to a live simulcast seminar that Beth Moore was hosting. Ya’ll, it left me absolutely speechless. She spoke on Desires, and used Psalms 37 & 38 as reference points. When she said the statement above… I stopped dead in my tracks. Nothing External. Not cancer, not divorce, not depression, not heartbreak.. NOTHING has that right. Yet we freely give it passage. We all have something, something that is creeping in and slowly taking over our “delight”. It is as sneaky as the night, and just as determined to put darkness over us. For me, it was brain cancer and a daughter who has medical issues, but for you it could be something totally ... Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2752112 Tue, 01 Sep 2009 12:23:03 +0100 2752112 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2734136&cid=t_139031_117_f&fid=38158&url=http%3A%2F%2Famericanacupuncture.blogspot.com%2F2009%2F08%2Fwho-speaks-for-your-doctor.html As a medical physician for over 50 years, I strive to give you the best medical information on controversial medical subjects and let you, the reader, come to your own conclusions. I have no ties to any organization, pharmaceutical, or lobby group. As an practicing medical acupuncturist since 1982, I find western medicine and medical acupuncture are very complimentary that results in astounding healing in pain management, addictions to cigarettes and food, and a host of other maladies. Let me know how we are doing. Your constructive comments are always appreciated. Click the RSS post button on the upper right hand corner if you would like to receive by email our future medical blogs. Visit http://www.americanacupuncture.com/ for more detailed information on healing. WHO SPEAKS FOR YOUR DO... Dr. Needles Medical Blogs blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2734136 Wed, 26 Aug 2009 01:18:00 +0100 2734136 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2727377&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FUPh73QiikMQ%2F I have to admit that ending chemo was probably one of the hardest things I have had to do in my life. Not because I don’t trust that God is still God. Not because I don’t believe that He is still able to do what He says he will do; but merely because I am [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2727377 Mon, 24 Aug 2009 05:00:52 +0100 2727377 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2709363&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F25uxKHEoy70%2F I love all things A&E reality. I love Intervention. I love Obsessed and now they have this new reality show called Hoarders. I often watch these shows and think about what makes people do the things they do. For example, last night on Hoarders there were two stories. One was of a [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2709363 Tue, 18 Aug 2009 09:46:48 +0100 2709363 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2523656&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FfnPK7_Kv4iY%2F It is one thing to think that Christ loves us with an unconditional love, but do we love him unconditionally in return? That is a tough question for even the most devout Christians. It digs at the heart of the flesh and reminds us that we are what we are because of who He [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2523656 Fri, 26 Jun 2009 12:30:11 +0100 2523656 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2406000&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FLH8MmxbSKKY%2F I could have written this song. I could have written these lyrics. I have been sitting here for hours listening this song over and over again, trying to wrap my brain around the lyrics, and trying to get my heart to fully be aware of their meaning. It is so easy to say that [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2406000 Wed, 13 May 2009 14:03:42 +0100 2406000 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2326642&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2FKv6xm0pFQvY%2F SECURE.. This is the one word Christians struggle with the most. Am I secure? Why do I fear? Many times when I am laying on the MRI table (which I will be, again, next Wednesday) I often go over these scriptures. When the fear creeps in, and takes control of my thoughts, these verses are the [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2326642 Fri, 03 Apr 2009 12:28:43 +0100 2326642 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2299079&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2Fz8HXGwmXcps%2F ACCEPTED… Do you sometimes feel that Christ could not possibly want or even love you because you are so dirty and nonredeemable? Do you ever feel defeated, dismayed, discouraged or depressed? Stop. Our enemy (satan) does NOT have the authority to defeat us. He wants you to believe he does, but Gods word says otherwise! You [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2299079 Wed, 01 Apr 2009 13:05:35 +0100 2299079 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2260438&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeedproxy.google.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F08GY93Pryd0%2F Therefore, since God in his mercy has given us this new way, we never give up. We reject all shameful deeds and underhanded methods. We don’t try to trick anyone or distort the word of God. We tell the truth before God, and all who are honest know this. If the Good News we preach [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2260438 Wed, 11 Mar 2009 11:12:57 +0100 2260438 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2138416&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F524412684%2F I am reading a book called “Crazy Love” by Francis Chan. In the first chapter, he encourages us to “stop praying.” I read that and thought “He must be joking” but the farther I read, the more it made sense. What if I said, “Stop Praying”? What if I told you to stop talking [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2138416 Tue, 27 Jan 2009 14:13:46 +0100 2138416 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2122211&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F518712736%2F I was reading my devotional today from Proverbs 31 Ministries and it really spoke to me. It spoke, not only to me as a mother, but me as a child of God. It spoke to the heart of the issues that I have faced and still face. You see, I have had [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2122211 Wed, 21 Jan 2009 13:52:52 +0100 2122211 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2116448&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F517742162%2F May I see Your light, Lord, even in life’s broken pieces. I have been thinking alot over this long weekend about issues that seem to remain in my life. Issues that I have absolutely no control over, yet I want to reign them in and tie them down. I have realized that I have [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2116448 Tue, 20 Jan 2009 16:03:15 +0100 2116448 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2087403&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F504436852%2F Watch this video. And then watch it again and let the words sink in. Worship is not about us, our voice, whether we sit or stand, whether we raise or hands or bow our heads. It has nothing to do with what style we prefer. Actually, It has absolutely nothing to do with us at all… And [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2087403 Tue, 06 Jan 2009 16:40:29 +0100 2087403 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=2022042&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F478014830%2F I love this quote by Helen Keller: “Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experiences of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success achieved.” This video really resonated with me, because I have prayed for answers to so many things and yet God is silent. [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=2022042 Mon, 08 Dec 2008 03:10:42 +0100 2022042 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1837388&cid=t_139031_111_f&fid=36048&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.b5media.com%2F%7Er%2Fb5media%2FAHeartyLife%2F%7E3%2FisBJLAlKRy0%2F I thought I would share with you one of my most popular posts… It is always a very big topic, since so many do not discuss this with their doctors and nurses due to embarrassment. Healthbolt has inspired me to write once again about that taboo subject of sexual relations. When I think about it, my discharge teaching with an acute MI patient is focused on nutrition, exercise and lifestyle changes, but doesn’t touch on sex. Don’t you think that should be a valid thought? “When is it safe to have sex again?” Well, lucky for ya’all, I have done my research on the horizontal hookie pookie. Sexual intercourse is considered as mild to moderate exercise. It takes about as much energy as walking up a couple flights of stairs. Most people can safely resume sexual... A Hearty Life blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1837388 Mon, 29 Sep 2008 00:33:25 +0100 1837388 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1475624&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F299768814%2F I bought a new Bible the other day. It is called “The Daily Walk”. In it, it has devotions on the side lines of the chapters called “My Daily Walk”. I am reading the book of Job right now, and let me tell you, it is kicking my butt bigtime. This is [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1475624 Wed, 28 May 2008 11:16:11 +0100 1475624 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1472856&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2Fespeciallyheather%2FEH%2F%7E3%2F299115978%2F The House of Representatives passed this bill last week: H. Res. 1124 In the House of Representatives, U. S., May 21, 2008. Whereas brain tumors are the leading cause of death from solid tumors in children under the age of 20, and are the third leading cause of death from cancer in young adults ages 20-39; Whereas more [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1472856 Tue, 27 May 2008 14:10:27 +0100 1472856 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1420723&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fespeciallyheather.com%2Fmusic%2F14%2520Mighty%2520To%2520Save.mp3 The fatigue of chemo is kicking my butt. I feel like I have 100 lb. weights strapped to my legs. Its completely bizarre because you would think that fatigue would equal tiredness, but nope. I look around my house and see so many things that require my attention, yet I have absolutely [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1420723 Mon, 05 May 2008 15:25:50 +0100 1420723 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1362544&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fespeciallyheather.com%2F2008%2F04%2F09%2Ffind-you-waiting%2F And through all these years You have been there Dried all my tears and answered my prayers I just want to feel your presence again I’m down on my knees in need of a friend And I find you waiting there for me….. I heard this song on the radio while driving from Laura’s house and it really hit [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1362544 Thu, 10 Apr 2008 01:11:05 +0100 1362544 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1344875&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fespeciallyheather.com%2F2008%2F04%2F01%2Foff-the-ground%2F This last week has been hard, yet wonderful at the same time. I have grown so much, yet still have so far to go. I have been on my face before Christ, and when I stand up, I realize that I am not so big, I am not so strong, I am not [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1344875 Tue, 01 Apr 2008 21:48:26 +0100 1344875 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1291236&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F03%2F10%2Fdo-not-question-authority%2F Stop what you are doing and watch this trailer for the upcoming movie Expelled. Whether you are a believer or not, this movie should rattle something in you that screams “WHAT!” In America, we have freedom to choose what and whom we believe….. or do we? And I will stand here, on the record, and [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1291236 Mon, 10 Mar 2008 12:36:11 +0100 1291236 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1252038&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F02%2F23%2Fan-annonymous-comment-to-my-last-post%2F First, let me start with this: My God is not a cosmic killjoy waiting for me to screw up so that he can sit on his throne and smite me, refuse to bless me, love me, or forgive me. It is actually the opposite. Because He loves me so much, He has saved [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1252038 Sat, 23 Feb 2008 14:33:36 +0100 1252038 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1250572&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F02%2F22%2Fworth-repeating%2F I was going through my blog this morning, and found this post that I had written April 23 2006. I was at a different point in my life, worrying about Emma and trying to give up those “reigns” of control. Now I have different “reigns” of control to give up, and I can [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1250572 Fri, 22 Feb 2008 12:05:24 +0100 1250572 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1225931&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F02%2F12%2Ffear-and-worry%2F Tomorrow I have an appointment at Moffit. I have an MRI at 8am and then I see the neuro-oncologist at 11am. Please pray for my nerves to be at ease, that I would trust that God already knows the results, he is already there and waiting. Those of you who do scans [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1225931 Tue, 12 Feb 2008 20:11:13 +0100 1225931 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1218471&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F02%2F08%2Fprayers-for-ashley%2F Ashley Adams Website Please pray for this little girl, and visit her website. (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1218471 Fri, 08 Feb 2008 15:22:43 +0100 1218471 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1212463&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F02%2F06%2Foh-my-what-a-busy-time-i-have-had%2F First, I apologize for not updating sooner. I have been a bit under the weather and just today have felt well enough to update you on what is going on here…. The Sunday before last (1-27) we had our first home group since my diagnosis and proceeding surgery. It felt so wonderful to entertain [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1212463 Wed, 06 Feb 2008 14:09:04 +0100 1212463 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1183216&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F01%2F28%2Fdoubt%2F Meanwhile, the boat was far out to sea when the wind came up against them and they were battered by the waves. At about four o’clock in the morning, Jesus came toward them walking on the water. They were scared out of their wits. “A ghost!” they said, crying out in terror. But Jesus was quick [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1183216 Mon, 28 Jan 2008 14:56:07 +0100 1183216 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1170535&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F01%2F23%2Fi-am-so-not-brave%2F So many times I will get comments that say “You are so brave, Heather!”.. And while I know that they are sincerely coming from peoples heart, I am so not brave. I have had circumstances in my life that I HAD to face, I had to have strength, and I had to fight like [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1170535 Wed, 23 Jan 2008 11:57:26 +0100 1170535 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1156214&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F01%2F16%2Fmuch-better%2F I visited my oncologist today (I forgot to mention that, I am so sorry!). The topic of todays visit was to determine if I needed a higher dose of Temodar (chemo). I believe I was overdosing myself on laxatives (constipation scares me) so we had an in depth conversation about that. He [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1156214 Wed, 16 Jan 2008 21:12:24 +0100 1156214 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1149930&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F01%2F14%2Fshadrack-meshack-and-abendigo%2F We could learn alot from these three guys… I know I am… If you are unfamiliar with the story, or just want to read it again: Daniel Chapter 3 Burn Us Up - Shane And Shane There were three Before the king There were three who wouldn’t bow to him For when you heard The music play And you were standing you would burn. They [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1149930 Mon, 14 Jan 2008 12:56:20 +0100 1149930 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1137439&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2008%2F01%2F08%2Fi-beg-for-you-to-move%2F I went to bed last night really contemplating my last post. Why did I feel this way and what is the Lord trying to tell me through this. I would love to tell you that it came to me in a “WOW! I know exactly!” type of moment, but it came from me [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1137439 Tue, 08 Jan 2008 14:39:06 +0100 1137439 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1097515&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F12%2F16%2Fprayer-requests-for-our-busy-week%2F Tuesday Evening: I was asked to give a “10 minute Speech” in front of the board members for the Wellness Communtity (Where I have my support group). These are the people that give the money to the Wellness Community, and needless to say my speech isn’t very good. It is Tuesday at 5pm. [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1097515 Sun, 16 Dec 2007 12:55:29 +0100 1097515 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1091631&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F12%2F13%2Fgreeting-the-morning-in-prayer%2F I know most of you are following closely the story of Kate and her lobectomy. I was sadden this morning to read that she still didnt have control over her left side, but encouraged that she had feeling. I am also encouraged with the way that Dave, her husband is handling this, him and [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1091631 Thu, 13 Dec 2007 13:56:07 +0100 1091631 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1088974&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F12%2F12%2Fmy-friend-kate%2F My friend Kate over at A Brain Tumor Story is having another brain surgery today at 11 am to remove the right front lobe of her brain. I want to have people praying for her and her surgical team during that time, but also praying for her husband and her little boys. Her mom [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1088974 Wed, 12 Dec 2007 11:59:16 +0100 1088974 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1086203&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F12%2F11%2Fits-a-choice%2F Choose to see what is always true instead of what happens to be true at that moment I have been guilty of this, not just this week but the last several weeks. I don’t feel like the old Heather, yet I know that I am the Heather that Christ wants me to be and has [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1086203 Tue, 11 Dec 2007 12:31:57 +0100 1086203 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1052767&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F11%2F27%2Falmost-9-months%2F It has been almost 8 months since I found out about my brain tumor (April) and almost 7 months since I found out I had cancer (May). I wish I could say that it has gotten easier knowing I have cancer, but honestly, it hasn’t… it has just become more normal, a new normal. [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1052767 Tue, 27 Nov 2007 14:55:00 +0100 1052767 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1048600&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F11%2F24%2Faudience-of-one%2F Big Daddy Weave - Audience of One I come on my knees To lay down before you Bringing all that I am Longing only to know you Seeking your face And not only your hand I find you embracing me Just as I am And I lift these songs To you and you alone As I sing to you In my praises make your home To my audience [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1048600 Sat, 24 Nov 2007 15:25:17 +0100 1048600 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1037940&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F11%2F20%2Fmothering-through-cancer%2F Ive been thinking alot about today. Preparing alot for today. Praying alot for the mothers that will be in the support group today. How do I answer their questions, whether there are 2 people or 20? How do I bring hope into a desperate situation, filled with disappointment and utter grief? [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1037940 Tue, 20 Nov 2007 12:19:19 +0100 1037940 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1037156&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F11%2F19%2Ftake-me%2F This is a song by Hawk Nelson that Easton is going to sing at church.. Can you hear me? Does anyone around me Feel the way that I feel now? Cause from the window where I sometimes cry I just want to see Your face tonight And I’m willing to lose everything I am Cause I need you more than ever I [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1037156 Mon, 19 Nov 2007 22:33:24 +0100 1037156 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1034714&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F11%2F18%2Fholy-crap%2F How many times do we reserve God for Sundays, only taking him out of His of box (which we made especially for Him, btw) at church. We wear our “Sunday Goodness” like a badge of honor to impress Rev. James, his wife, and all the members we come across along the way. Then, [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1034714 Sun, 18 Nov 2007 06:32:34 +0100 1034714 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=1030384&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F11%2F15%2Fglory%2F Glory- Nichole Nordeman/Selah One day eyes that are blind will see you clearly And one day all who deny will finally believe One day hearts made of stone will break in pieces And one day chains once unbroken will fall down at your feet So we wait for that one day come quickly We want to see your Glory Every knee falls [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=1030384 Thu, 15 Nov 2007 22:15:05 +0100 1030384 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933451&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F10%2F06%2Fwell-hello-stranger%2F Wow it has been a long time since I updated… I joined a Cancer Support Group. I really really enjoy it. It is nice to know that the people you are talking to really get what you are feeling, because they are feeling it or have felt it too. I’m the youngest one [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933451 Sat, 06 Oct 2007 14:27:28 +0100 933451 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933452&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F26%2F100-years-from-now%2F My dad has a blog, and I encourage you to read todays entry. I am still not feeling very well right now (chemo sucks the life out of me), so instead of writing about that, I want to encourage you to please go here and read my dads post, leave a comment, and bookmark [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933452 Wed, 26 Sep 2007 15:16:13 +0100 933452 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933453&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F23%2Fif-you-leave-this-blog%2F having taken with you only one thing… I pray that it is Jesus. I pray that He touches you, and you leave here renewed and uplifted. I pray that if you came in doubting His love for you, you leave here knowing that He loves you more than I could ever find words to [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933453 Sun, 23 Sep 2007 23:58:37 +0100 933453 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933455&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F17%2Fthe-hammer-holds%2F A shapeless piece of steel, that’s all I claim to be This hammer pounds to give me form, this flame, it melts my dreams I glow with fire and fury, as I’m twisted like a vine My final shape, my final form I’m sure I’m bound to find So dream a little, dream for me in hopes that I’ll [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933455 Mon, 17 Sep 2007 11:19:58 +0100 933455 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933456&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F13%2Fsince-yall-asked%2F Here are some specific prayer requests for you: Emma Grace has transplant clinic tomorrow in Gainesville. She stayed home from school yesterday and is home today for a cough and snotty nose, so pray that this isn’t the first sign of an nasty infection. I am curious to see what her labs are tomorrow. [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933456 Thu, 13 Sep 2007 13:12:08 +0100 933456 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933460&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F10%2Fprayers-for-amy-wilhoite%2F Update: Amy went to be with her Savior shortly after 4pm. This is the latest from her blog, written by her husband: Once again, I’m not sure the best way to say this, so out it comes. My dear beloved Amy has gone home to meet her Lord. Shortly after 4:00 PM on this, September 10th, 2007, she [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933460 Mon, 10 Sep 2007 21:57:21 +0100 933460 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933461&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F10%2Fhere-it-goes%2F I am doing normal things, but I don’t feel normal. I feel like life is going on around me and I am stuck back in April when, honestly, my world fell apart. I fail to have words to describe the place where I am, spiritually or emotionally. It isn’t so much a lack [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933461 Mon, 10 Sep 2007 20:48:34 +0100 933461 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933463&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F04%2Fcancers-unexpected-blessings%2F When Kelli emailed this to me, I just had to share it. He puts into words what I try to do here, everyday through this blog. (Bold and Italics are mine) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Commentator and broadcaster Tony Snow announced that he had colon cancer in 2005. Following surgery and chemo-therapy, Snow joined the Bush administration [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933463 Tue, 04 Sep 2007 18:17:10 +0100 933463 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933465&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F09%2F03%2Fprayer-warriors%2F Marisa over at Life received some devastating news last week. Her doctors have told her that chemotherapy is no longer an option because the cancer has spread. She is waiting to hear from some doctors about clinical trials, but like me, she is not willing to accept this is going to be the [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933465 Mon, 03 Sep 2007 12:01:37 +0100 933465 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933467&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F08%2F30%2Fdespite-myself-2%2F This post was originally written in November of 2006, but I think it is worth repeating. (although I had huge tears when I came to the last part.) Thank you for the beautiful cool morning, its been a while since we have been able to just sit and talk. Today, as I shuffled through our morning routine, [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933467 Thu, 30 Aug 2007 11:14:11 +0100 933467 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=933468&cid=t_139031_136_f&fid=36469&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.especiallyheather.com%2F2007%2F08%2F29%2Fcancer-and-forgiveness%2F Before Cancer, I thought I had the world by the horns. I had a wonderfully wonderful husband, great kids, great parents, and great friends. I couldn’t have asked for more. Even Emma’s health was remarkably well. Now, I take a look back at my past and wonder. I wonder if I had [...] (Source: Especially Heather) Especially Heather blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=933468 Wed, 29 Aug 2007 19:09:05 +0100 933468 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=793786&cid=t_139031_109_f&fid=35677&url=http%3A%2F%2Ffeeds.feedburner.com%2F%7Er%2FBrainBasedBusiness%2F%7E3%2F143144252%2Fwhat_do_people_hear_in_words_y.html  You’ve likely seen it happen…. He brought her down without any awareness that he undermined her career. She dismissed his good ideas without realizing she excluded her colleague. Have you seen people damage good relationships – and then appear surprised? Or have you heard people ask for help and then express their frustration when others fail to offer any ideas that assist them?Confusion and misunderstanding  come from speaking out without regard for what response will likely come back. It’s more than using good tone though. It’s also bigger than meta messages … which merely mask what we mean … such as saying “it’s Ok…” when it clearly is not. Most people would agree that what we say and how we say it impacts ... BrainBasedBusiness blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=793786 Sat, 11 Aug 2007 20:36:57 +0100 793786 http://www.medworm.com/index.php?rid=644981&cid=t_139031_87_f&fid=34866&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.thecardioblog.com%2F2007%2F05%2F29%2Fcommute-time-effects-heart-health%2F Filed under: Diet, PreventionWe wake, we work, we eat, we sleep. We wake, we work, we eat, we sleep. We wake, we work, we eat, we sleep. Sound familiar? Or did I forget something? Oh yes, We Sit in Traffic, too. In recent years, commutes to and from work have become longer -- which, in turn, causes us to spend more time sitting in a car and less time engaging in physical activity (especially when many jobs are fairly sedentary in and of themselves). Here are some interesting stats related to work commute times, and, specifically, how they have changed over the past decade: ~ Average Commute: Up 14% from commute time in 1990 ~ Solo Drivers: Up 3.4% from 1990 averages ~ Early Risers: Up 11% from 1990, when this percentage less of workers were waking up before 5am. ~ Early Commuters: Up 25% ... The Cardio Blog blogs http://www.medworm.com/rss/comments.php?id=644981 Tue, 29 May 2007 04:00:00 +0100 644981